Poem 6 ± World AIDS Day 2017

Greg Marzullo
Refugee crisis

They ran to their boats,
heaving off the gravelled shore into cold Aegean, where we
flailed, shoved, climbed one another.
Charon would surely reach us first
eyes flashing in the gloom.

Ferocious
they plowed the sea, the waters
cowed by their glare,
calloused hands gripped the oars,
unremitting.

Famished sirens, we
clawed at the hulls
wept into the waves;

they never faltered,
those women hauled their
brethren aboard and
sped back to Lesbos:

Aphrodite’s temple turned
charnel house,
love goddess wreathed with dead laurels.

For the lesbians without whom we’d all be dead
 

 

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Greg Marzullo has worked for the Washington Blade and the Phoenix New Times, among other publications. Winner of a Society for Professional Journalists award for arts criticism, he was a semi-finalist in the 2016 Tucson Festival of Books for his poetry.

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What Rough Beast | Poem for November 6, 2017

Adam Zhou
Stale Goods

Four years should pass
for one to adjust to the darkness
of unblinking eyes
and even if a man
were to stare at the irides:
a small pair of mirrors
he would discover
not his reflection
but a yawning hole spilling
back into the river
now as clear as the water
now as rippled as the scars

of a body whose hands
never offered
pink carnations.

 

Adam Zhou’s poetry has appeared in The Rising Phoenix Review and The Kill List Chronicles. In 2017, Zhou won a National Silver Medal for personal essay and memoir from the Scholastic Art & Writing Awards (presented by the Alliance for Young Artists & Writers), the longest-running and most prestigious recognition program in the United States for creative teens in grades 7–12. He is a sophomore at the International School Manila.

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Poem 5 ± World AIDS Day 2017

Elizabeth Wilson
from The Collection of Izzy Mac

“It’s hard to write about the details of Bob and me, but without Bob, very little of me remains.”
—Journal entry, Izzy Mac(e Wilson), June 2017

1.
Thank you
I was jaded and getting harder.
My body mimicked my emotional state.
My heart was black and hard.
Then I saw the lighthouse,
The one with the man looking out,
Waves crashing around him.
And long before I could see his face
I knew him.
I love knowing him again!

 

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Elizabeth Wilson’s writing has appeared in both social work and women’s studies anthologies, scholarly publications, and technical publications. She blogs on the International Bipolar Foundation website.

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What Rough Beast | Poem for November 5, 2017

Chaya Bhuvaneswar
Gordimer at Dusk

There was a ripped basketball net, just a few threads hanging from metal
Well-hung, perpetually ready, moving in the breeze or in the gust of wind created by people swishing.
There was the hard thwack of basketballs metallic from the air in them, punching down concrete.
Ripping away at the rubber.
I sat unnoticed for hours, bench under shade, shade near the grass, grass holding snakes, for all I knew,
And there was Doris Lessing in my hand, and singing grass and terrifying lust that leads to death,
And braided, cryptic Indian women in Gordimer’s book, their tension crackled in the plastic of library coverings.
I read these books and learned about terror.
Not the kind that galvanized rallies, made blood electric, bouncing off fences,
But terror, silent, sitting by itself on a park bench, cold and crying, old before its time,
Defining “writer” as a woman I could never be.

 

Chaya Bhuvaneswar’s  work has appeared in Nimrod, Bangalore Review, Blue Lake Review and the Asian American Literary Review. She is lives in the US with her family and is a practicing physician at work on a novel.

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Poem 4 ± World AIDS Day 2017

Julene Tripp Weaver
Miracle Meds

Pharmaceutical wonders are at work
but I believe only in this moment
of well-being.
—Jane Kenyon

I refused AZT. Eventually, my T-cell count
fell to fifty, only then I agreed
to a non-protease regimen:
Epivir, Zerit, Viread and Viramune.
Their chemistry made me manic,
unable to sleep, deprived. A walking
time bomb waiting to explode.

A friend asks, Why do you call it sex addiction?
Often I want to hide from everyone—
no one comprehends—only in my own time,
with my own words and slow space is there peace.

There was no choice but to start a protease.
Hell to take meds every day with meals that must
contain fat. Surprised I survived this far
with a relationship, a man who stayed.

Eventually the pills sorted themselves out—
and I had to agree the drugs are a miracle—
but death will not stop, pernicious and cruel,
laughing it will enter, a common infection,
my skin will turn ugly, isolate me from the world,
ravish my insides, steal my energy.

There are days I forget to take my pills—
days I live normal—want to feel the breeze
without the neuropathy, enjoy a quiet moment,
sit by a window with a book
and a pen, ready to catch words.

 

logoJulene Tripp Weaver is the author of Truth Be Bold: Serenading Life & Death in the Age of AIDS (Finishing Line Press, 2017), No Father Can Save Her (Plain View Press, 2011), and Case Walking: An AIDS Case Manager Wails Her Blues (Finishing Line Press, 2017). Her poems have appeared in Anti-Heroin Chic, Riverbabble, River & South Review, Paddock Review, and The Seattle Review of Books. A psychotherapist, Weaver worked in AIDS services for over 21 years. Find more of her writing at www.julenetrippweaver.com.

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What Rough Beast | Poem for November 4, 2017

Zachary Taylor Knox
(poor concentration)

come to the wagon stall at the carnival and
graze upon the prescribed crystal ball
to see what litters the lobes and halls
of the mind served on a silver
platter fed to the cannibal chatter
talk is cheap they bleat, lucky for us
someone bleeps the bad words that
could raise some concerns with the
parents that have easy to hit nerves
got to protect the children from the
danger of words that we heard from
the mouths of our parents it’s a
competition to see whose childhood
was worse they put it on tv in the form
of pornographic tv but mark twain didn’t
speak kindly about the african american
community so he shouldn’t be taught

they all speak fast enough to make the head spin
in this land where the grass is always greener no
one wins and everything done is counted in a swear jar
as a sin

 

Zachary Taylor Knox’s poems have appeared in Ealain and Penny Ante Feud. He lives in Fort Madison, Iowa.

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Poem 3 ± World AIDS Day 2017

Dennis Rhodes
Passing

They think no one dies anymore.
The worst is over. Time to move on
with their uninfected lives. The truth is
men have struggled for twenty years or more
trying to get their “cocktails” just right,
fearful as ever of night sweats, random sores
breaking out on their bodies. They
have been chronically underweight
and gaunt, some with walkers. Yes,
life has gone on for the many.
No one deliberately ignores the few:
they are largely, but kindly, unnoticed.
My friend Frank passed yesterday.
They think no one dies anymore.

 

logoDennis Rhodes is the author of Spiritus Pizza & Other Poems (Vital Links, 2000) and Entering Dennis (Xlibris, 2005). His poems and essays have appeared in BLOOM, Chelsea Station, Lambda Literary Review, The Cape Cod Times, New York Newsday, Fine Gardening, Avocet, Backstreet, Ibbetson Street, bear creek haiku, Aurorean, and Alembic, among others.

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What Rough Beast | Poem for November 3, 2017

Ann Chadwell Humphries
Very Fine People. On Both Sides.

He says, then waves it away like a fly.
A flow chart of infrastructure furls

from the glass of Secretary Chow’s
blue-suited smile. Other cabinet members

study their shoes. His words fracture
their masks. Even

the marble floor shows cracks.
I cannot look away. The fissure lures

me like a keyhole. I recoil at the odor
of ugliness, pledge to do something.

I’ll start with myself.

 

Ann Chadwell Humphries’s have appeared in Jasper Magazine and on The Comet, the bus system of the Central Midlands Regional Transit Authority in Richland and Lexington counties in the Columbia metropolitan area of South Carolina (an initiative of Columbia’s inaugural poet laureate, Ed Madden). Winner of a 2017 Into the Fire scholarship from The Sun magazine and recipient of a Jasper Magazine Emerging Voice award, she lives and writes in Columbia, SC.

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What Rough Beast | Poem for November 2, 2017

Connolly Ryan
We Drugged

We drugged the ghetto
to numb its rage and plant
bitterness without end.
We drugged the freedom rebellion
which degenerated into orgies
and medicated slogans.
We drugged the avenues
with gentrification or
cultural genocide if you will.
We drugged the sidewalks
with stop and frisk and bend over now boy.
We drugged the prisons
with more black men
than there were slaves.
We drugged our children
when daydreaming and restlessness
was deemed counter-productive
yet marvelously lucrative for over-the-counter dealers.
We drugged the farmers with big machines.
We drugged agriculture with agribusiness.
We drugged the topsoil with heresy.
We drugged our community with hearsay.
We drugged neighborhoods with suspicion.
We drugged our cats and dogs
in the name of loyalty and love:
Loyalty to our own malaise,
Love for the pills that manage it.
We drugged our schools with plastic tests
on which both spontaneity and innovation gag
and on which ennui and detachment thrive.
We drugged our husbands and wives
with techno-surrogates for intimacy.
We drugged our elderly parents
with bewildering isolation.
We drugged the sky with lemon-scented
demon-fumes and stainless steel cowardice.
We drugged the manna with Mammon.
Drugged the land with syrups of piracy.
Drugged the forests with disappearance.
Drugged the beasts with erasure.
Drugged birds with drugged bugs.
Drugged our hopes with rape and plague.
Drugged love with God’s consent.
Drugged God in the name of hate.
We drugged evolution with nostalgia.
We’ve even drugged our pursuit
of happiness and then slyly replaced it
with an eagerness for emptiness
as we carefully scream
into our fiendish screens
and morph into the final drug.

 

Connolly Ryan’s poems have recently appeared in The Good Men Project, The Valley Advocate, The Opiate, Vagabond City, and Gravel, among other journals.  He holds a BA in English and an MFA in Poetry from UMass Amherst, were he is a senior lecturer in the Commonwealth Honors College Honors Seminar Series and also teaches courses in Contemporary American Popular Culture and Metaphor and Creativity.

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Poem 2 ± World AIDS Day 2017

Al Smith
Tribal Survival

A part of me wanted to shed a tear,
But my well of feeling was so deep
It felt more like mourning’s nadir.
Profound feelings managed to seep
To the depths of my weary soul.
I was reading stories of long-term
Survivors of the HIV and AIDS toll.
They coped while others became infirm,
And tended them until they expired.
The survivors living on to become
Victims themselves, overwhelmed and tired.
In some cases getting to be scum,
Too sick to work, but too healthy to perish;
Ending up in medical and financial limbo.
In an effort to avoid more nightmarish
Emotional trauma, they isolated in woe.
Still living and struggling to adjust,
In trying to keep it all together,
Some days it’s been a case of just
Putting one foot in front of the other.
But it’s not over until the fat lady sings.
Disappointment, joy, loss, love, despair,
Boredom, hope and gratefulness are fillings
For their individual stories of life’s scare.
In a few cases older men have connected.
Ultimately, who will be the last man standing;
The last man to tell his tale, respected
For enduring to the final disbanding?

 

logoAl Smith tested positive for HIV in 1988. He lives in San Diego, California.

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